✨ Reflection — 365 Days Later

This time last year, I was sitting on a cruise ship on New Year’s Eve, asking myself, how did I get here?

My mother had died earlier that year—February 2024. Not even a full year had passed. And then, six months later, my life shifted again. I was sitting at breakfast with my sister and my niece at the back of that ship, staring at the ocean, thinking… how did I get here?

As the day moved toward the festivities that night, something in me broke open. I began to cry uncontrollably. Right there. In front of everyone. I could not stop it.

That was the first time I realized this season was going to be different.

My sister looked at me and said, why don’t you think you deserve real love?

That question stopped me. Because I had never let myself sit with it. I had always carried everything alone. Always.

Now here I am, 365 days later.

It’s December 31st again. I’m not on a ship. I’m not on my way to beautiful Puerto Rico. But I am standing at my window, looking out at white snow, thanking the Lord for order, alignment, and wholeness.

This year, I have been in His presence—seeking healing, restoration, forgiveness, and understanding. I’ve been reading the Bible and praying without ceasing. Establishing a real relationship with Him for the first time in my entire life.

I am free.

I am at peace.

I am healed—but I still have healing to do.

I am no longer bound. No longer tied up or tangled in the things that once held me. I don’t see life the way I used to. I don’t see people the way I used to. I don’t survive the way I used to.

I’m thriving.

I’m trusting.

I know where my help comes from.

I see clearer now. I hear better now. My discernment is sharper now. I am humble. I am meek.

Thank God, I’m not who I used to be.

I am an author. I have a book currently available. I have another book releasing in 2026. I have a publishing company. I am a witness for the Lord. I am an ambassador for Christ. I understand my purpose.

And most importantly, I have a relationship with the most important Person.

— LeYonce

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